April 28th, 2008
by Atomictumor
Welp, its been a time and a half, but I think that the ol’ Tumor is getting long in the tooth. Its limping along, and starting to try to bite the chickens. Its foaming at the mouth just a bit, and its been looking at you with a gleam in your eyes that has you keeping a little bit of distance.
When that happens, brother, its time to take it out back and do something about it.
So, I was going to just take it off and save me some hosting money, but the Lady convinced me that maybe this stuff might help somebody, or at least make some interesting reading for people who have too much, uh, normality in their life.
Speaking of which, I’m chock full of normal these days. I get up in the morning with an angel, the woman I love so amazingly dearly, the person who I thought just didn’t exist, or was too good to be true, or something. Anyway, this chick is laying right next to me, every single morning. We get up, we have our coffee, we get our (hee, our) kids off to school, we meet up at her work for more coffee, we talk, we chat, we flirt, we laugh. Sometimes we bitch. All those little normal things.
We go our ways throughout the day, sending text messages back and forth. We talk about whats for supper, or if we should rent a movie, or which bills we should pay this week and which ones we should put off till the next paycheck.
We watch the kids, the ones that I fathered a long time ago, and the ones that she mothered last year.
We cook dinner (or buy out, probably too often), having reached a consensus earlier in the day. We cuddle on the couch and watch TV, or fiddle on the laptop (yeah, we’re still out there on the ol’ internet, just not much to say). We watch geeky shows on the History Channel.
We tuck the kids into bed, and climb in ourselves. We say “I love you. Good night” every night.
Then we do it again.
Thats normal. Thats the stuff that, even if you try your hardest not to, you take for granted. Until something happens that takes it away.
Thing is, if you’re lucky enough to get it back, holy shit, its the most precious thing in the world. Its peace. Its Beauty. Its fulfillment. It feels like more than anybody could possibly deserve, a piece of Heaven on Earth.
Thats where I’m at today.
This little trainwreck of a website started out in a period of that normal, four friends who started up a blog to yap about the little things. We got a little community minded, and it was cool. Its good to feel important in your town, and thats been a rewarding thing.
It became something else when GAC was sick. It became a lifeline. I was going through an impossibly hard time, and the encouragement, and the wisdom, and the help of people all over the world helped get me through it.
You watched as I coped, and as I walked my boys through it. After that, you saw as I met the Lady. Those of you who stuck around watched our love grow. Its the greatest thing of my life.
Now we’re back at that equilibrium, that beautiful time of Normal, and this lifeline just isn’t what it used to be. Theres too much weight hanging around these little ones and zeros, and we’re floating too far above that now. It just doesn’t fly.
So, I’ve closed down the ‘tuma. Bos, Eaves, thanks for helping get this thing started.
Thanks to all the good peoples for good times.
Take it easy, internet.






