Comments on: Its OK…

By: Kerri

Kerri — Tue, 07 Nov 2006 04:39:30 +0000

Here continuing to pray and hope. So cool to hear of your great love for her. That she has that in her life is truly beautiful and the best gift that can be received.

By: newscoma

newscoma — Tue, 07 Nov 2006 04:51:54 +0000

I’ve always liked this quote. For some reason it comforts me so I will share it with you:

Every evening I turn my worries over to God. He’s going to be up all night anyway. ~Mary C. Crowley

Rest and be well

By: Bob

Bob — Tue, 07 Nov 2006 04:53:29 +0000

I linked over from Busymom’s blog. I’ve hesistated commenting because it’s so hard to read this - your emotion is so raw, so real. It’s hard for me because I lost my mom last year to cancer -she was 53. And in a way, a lot of what you’re feeling right now, I was feeling. I so want this to turn out right for you. For her. For your family. There is a definite truth and sincerity to your words. When you say here that you love her, I believe it. No, I feel it. And I’m sure she knows it too. I’m not a spiritual person, and haven’t been for many years, so I can’t pray for you. However, know that yet another stranger out there is thinking of you tonight. Has been all day. And will be thinking about you until things get better. Stay strong.

By: IME

IME — Tue, 07 Nov 2006 04:55:38 +0000

If the prayers of a total stranger several states away might help, you have all of mine. I know when my son was in the NICU and very ill, just knowing that people were thinking of him and praying for him helped. I’m thinking of and praying for you and your wife and your family.

By: Atomictumor

Atomictumor — Tue, 07 Nov 2006 04:56:48 +0000

Bob, by nature I’m not a spiritual person either. In fact, GAC was an athiest, and I’ve been a confirmed fence rider for 10 years.
I think things have changed. I’d tell you why, but I won’t, for the same reason I wouldn’t convert religious friends to athiesm. Any port in a storm, man.
I’m sorry to hear about your mother. I wouldn’t wish this, or that, kind of pain on anybody.

By: Jeanette

Jeanette — Tue, 07 Nov 2006 05:09:22 +0000

Your wife and family, all of you, are in my prayers. Like you, I am not spiritual by nature and I express my own spirituality in my own way. I do not know you but, in reading your entries about your wife and family, I can picture you and I can feel the love you share.

By: LissaKay

LissaKay — Tue, 07 Nov 2006 05:10:11 +0000

Damn Jake, I just got dried up from talking with Donna and reading your previous posts to her. She has no internet at home, so she’s gonna call me in the evenings for updates. Her heart is breaking too.

My parents go to one of the biggest churches in Knoxville, Cedar Springs Presbyterian. They put you on the prayer list there. It’s a team of about 25 people that each have 5 people to call, then they each call 5 people and so on for a few rounds … there are now hundreds of people there speaking your names to God. Surely we have His attention by now.

And speaking of the Old Guy … I’ve been doing this strange little dance with God my whole adult life. I kinda ignored Him for a few years, then all of the sudden I found myself begging Him for the life of my newborn son. He gave me my son, but at a price … my marriage. Since then, I have alternately begged for peace in my life, questioned him … why does He let these awful things happen to me? And I have raged against Him … when I just can’t take anymore. Then we dance some more. He spins me around, tosses me up in the air, then I fall to the ground and just before I hit, He swoops me up again for more spinning and twirling around. A spiritual tango, so to speak. I just want to sit one out. Catch my breath. But He always has more waiting for me.

But still I Believe. I still have Faith. I yearn for Grace and Peace. My mom tells me that God has a plan for me, that all this is preparation for something bigger, something better. I just have to give in, to trust Him, live through Him.

Frankly, I sometimes think the Old Guy is just a sadist. I mean really. Donna and I were just saying, why doesn’t shit like this happen to the crack dealer or the child molester? Why does it happen to good people like you and BJ?

It’s. Not. Fair. Dammit. *foot stomp for emphasis*

I don’t know where I am going with this, except that I do so understand this issue with God, and faith and all that. I’m no expert on these matters, having only had a few years of Sunday School, then I made it up as I went along. But I do know He’s a wily one, and will surprise you in ways you cannot imagine.

I am praying constantly for a miracle for you guys. I will never let up.

By: indemom

indemom — Tue, 07 Nov 2006 05:15:26 +0000

“I told her the boys will grow up to be good men, and that I will always love her. Our family will persevere. She will always be a part of it.”
You said exactly the perfect things that a mom needs to hear, and I’m absolutely certain that she heard you, and that it eased the fear she must be feeling…As for that deal you tried to make with God…you can count on it.
Your family is in my thoughts and prayers. There IS hope. You’ll never know how many people are with you now.

By: The Breeze

The Breeze — Tue, 07 Nov 2006 05:55:16 +0000

AT you and your family are very much in my thoughts and prayers. God is there and He hears you. Believe me someties I wonder why things happen to me also,loke I’m down to my last 20 bucks and something breaks that cost 50 to fix,but it always works out. With all the folks praying for you and your family God is listening and moving among us. He is walking the halls of your house while you sleep,He continues the watch for you. He is lifting you up when you want to fall and if you do fall He will catch you. Hes always there for you no matter what. I’m not that good with words but I just wanted to let you know that you are in my daily prayers and have asked God to reach out and remove all the sickness from her body and to also touch you and your family as well as all the Tumor family. My God bless all of you.

By: LissaKay

LissaKay — Tue, 07 Nov 2006 06:45:37 +0000

Oh, and remind me to ’splain that male nurse vs female nurse thing to you one of these days. It’s an interesting look at human nature, the inherent differences in men and women and why there’s a good bit of truth in that Mars/Venus thing …

There I go, intellectualizing again … go figure.