November 8th, 2006 by Atomictumor
They blindsided me when I called at 6:30, after a fitful night where my mind showed me glimpses of that pain I wanted to see yesterday, and that I don’t want to see anymore.
They told me they’re starting dialysis again. I didn’t have time to gird my loins, like yesterday, and pray that she can take it.
2 liters of urine left her last night. She’s 7 lbs lighter.
Liver is encouraging, according to Gary, who has a few days off in about 10 minutes, but all the numbers seemed about the same to me. I’m assuming he knows better, because I think he knows me well enough that I don’t want things sugar coated.
Please phone, don’t ring.
Gotta take the kids to school in a bit, and all I wants to do is lounge around in the bed.
The computer in her crapped out on the wireless connection, so I left abruptly. I went to sleep, and it felt goooood. You guys are right. I just don’t like listening, because I’m that way. I like listening to her, but I don’t always do what she says.
She’s the boss in the house. Theres not much bone about that.
Anyway.
BJ. Little BJ, today, right now, I know you’ll come back as you. The humor, the fire, the sweetness. The loyality, the sarcasm, the competitiveness, the skill, it will all be back. We’ll never laugh about this, never, and we’ll probably only speak of it rarely and fleetingly, but you’ll be back, because thats the way we are.
I love you, my sweet one. Words don’t describe. I love you so much, little girl. When you read this, I’ll be so happy.
NTF, NTD.
I love you, BJ.
November 8th, 2006 at 7:09 am
Tidings of great joy. I’m truely happy for you, AT.
November 8th, 2006 at 7:09 am
I’m glad the boys are going to school. I know Pigpen is in good hands, and I can only assume MastaG is. I doubt MastaG will be very productive, but that’s okay.
I’m so encouraged about the dialysis being effecitve yesterday! I hope today brings even more hope and joy than yesterday.
We’re praying for you and BJ and look forward to seeing you all in a couple of days.
November 8th, 2006 at 7:30 am
The title of your post reminded me of that Norah Jones song. My mom gave me a burned copy of it last year for my birthday, but I never listened to it much. Think I’ll go find it.
Sunrise, sunrise
Looks like morning in your eyes
But the clock’s held 9:15 for hours
Sunrise, sunrise
Couldn’t tempt us if it tried
‘Cause the afternoon’s already come and gone
And I say
oooooo
To you
Surprise, surprise
Couldn’t find it in your eyes
But I’m sure it’s written all over my face
Surprise, surprise
Never something I could hide
When I see we made it through another day
And I say
oooooo
To you
And now the night
Will throw its cover down
mmmmm, on me again
Ooooh, and if I’m right
It’s the only way to bring me back
oooooo
To you
oooooo
To you
November 8th, 2006 at 7:41 am
Yours was the first blog I read this morning. I am so encouraged by what you are saying. You will be in my prayers and thoughts today and I pray for a full recovery.
November 8th, 2006 at 8:28 am
AT, read your post as soon as I got up, as a lot are doing. So glad she is rallying…keep up the good fight BJ. The clan is together and hearing your battle cry…we are united as a family in our prayers! Jake, we went down this road when Jiggy was so very ill several years ago…Alan knows where you are and the rollercoaster of emotions you are feeling…at times he, too, wanted to “hit the wall” and he probably did, but he hit his knees as you have done…she came back, and I know it was a direct result of all the prayers of family, friends, and people she didn’t even know ( she was on prayer lists everywhere, too, and still is) just as you and GAC are on prayer lists all over. I am thanking God for each victory GAC gains as we do daily for Jiggy’s restored health. Like you are wondering about the scarey future, they even now have their scarey times because they are left with quarterly MRI’s and consultations that leave them stressed to the max until the results are back. And yet, they still believe…and hope…there’s that word again…and then it is pushed to the back of their minds until the next time for tests. What I’m so badly bungling trying to say is we are praying for you to hang in there for “His grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” We love you all!
November 8th, 2006 at 8:36 am
The update sounds great this AM AT and that is a praise. We, and ours, (That is terrible English…anyway) are continuing to pray and that will not stop just because she is on the upswing at the moment. The liver functions and the urine flow both sound very positive. We will continue to pray and praise until she is home. She will be home and she will be the BJ you knew from before.
November 8th, 2006 at 8:46 am
Still Hanging tight with you!
November 8th, 2006 at 9:06 am
Yay!!! You guys were the first thing on my mind this morning when I awoke. (Also the last blog I looked at last night before going to bed.) Hang in there.
November 8th, 2006 at 9:07 am
I had no idea you guys were in EST. So, I guess I’m just colder up here - and not any later :)
This morning’s news is so good!
Still praying.
November 8th, 2006 at 9:27 am
Good morning AT! Glad to hear she “went” 7 pounds worth! That’s a move in the right direction.
I think BJ will be back to her normal self after she recovers. I think the best changes will be that y’all will love, cherish, appreciate, and respect each other alot more. Hasn’t that already happened for you? It seems like it has from where I read! I’m counting on today being the best day in her recovery thus far! and remember, take care of yourself too!
November 8th, 2006 at 9:41 am
Grandma had surprised exclaimations at GAC’s kidney produce report. AT, I’m glad that you are so hopeful, but don’t start counting your chickens. I am convinced that you and GAC have a long road of recovery before she is fully recuperated, and that may be the hardest part of all. Despite the legendary stubbornness of you two, you may also want to seriously consider some lifestyle changes, as well.
November 8th, 2006 at 10:36 am
Hey Jacob, I thought I’d share with you something I wrote during one of my excruciating experiences back last April. It is called: Days Gone By.
DAYS GONE BY
By Sandy Turner
4/28/2006
Oh Days Gone by & here I sit wondering, why?
Why do my days feel so empty when
I have been blessed with plenty?
When I think about where I’ve been,
I shutter to think where I’d be if it were not for Him.
When looking at the days gone by,
I realize all I need is you Lord,
All I need is you.
When my heart aches so,
I think it will burst from all the pain & hurt
From days gone by.
Yet, here you are Lord, by my side,
Guiding me, loving me, teaching me
And loving me with a love never to be put aside.
Help me to love you with all my
Heart n soul and mind.
You love me with a love this world
n’er to match of this kind
A love that sees beyond my sin
And all my faults to
Sustain me, comfort & save me
And all the while,
Restoring me from days gone by.
This is just something personal that got me through some really tough times. IT is a peace that passes all understanding that holds you, sustains you and draws you so close and gives you strength when all of yours is gone. It is so tough to face such situations as you are going through. With the friends & families new friends that you have standing beside you keeping you encouraged, lifted up, and providing a shoulder to lean on - you will both make it. We each can use so much comfort during these very trying times in our lives. It is never expected in our lifetime to have to endure these horrific times, but we are never left alone to bear it. Thinking of you always, sandyt
November 8th, 2006 at 12:07 pm
Thanks Sandy, and everybody.
November 9th, 2006 at 9:33 am
You are so welcome AT. My love to BJ and your precious boys.We are all here for you and will be for as long as you need us ok? You have made a priceless difference in my life as well as so many that read your writings where you have opened up your heart to us time and time again. Take care.