November 10th, 2006 by Atomictumor
After a few days of being by myself and getting my head straight, I feel great having family back up. It really helps.
There’ll be tough days, but today was a good one. BJ’s in a tight spot, but I choose to have faith that she’ll be fine. And that I can’t help her, but to love her, and to speak of her, and pray.
Not much else to say. Just wanted to put that down.
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A few more facts:
Dr.Gavin and the Neurologist, Dr. Lynch, said that it looks like its the infection that prevents coagulation, and not the zygris. Not a kidney infection after all? They don’t know.
Her body is recovering. Numbers aren’t important as much anymore. White blood cell is still about 29,000, still a massive infection. Her body will win. I have absolutely no doubt about that, its just the mind that I fear.
I haven’t told the boys about the brain thingy. I’m not planning on it, until I have to. Figure a few weeks, then it’ll come up.
Next week is the beginning of the rest of my life. Whatever comes, will happen then. I hope to have you all helping me. One of my fears is that when this gets old, those of you who have become close (and you know who you are, damn near all of you) will split.
I haven’t come close to finishing the GAC posse, I just haven’t had time to do it. Bos, Eaves, figure you can help? The thing will be friggin MASSIVE when its done. We’ll need to take out room on another server for that!
BJ, my BJ. This has gone on so long, taken so many weird turns
“How many strange days and twisted nights has this been going on?” is what the man said, I think.
Heading out to see you now, honey.
I love you. I love you so much, and I count the seconds until I have you back.
November 10th, 2006 at 8:22 pm
Found you about three days ago through busymom…and you and your beautiful wife have been in my prayers since then. Keep hoping and keep looking. It’s okay to question and yell at God–anyone who tells you otherwise never had to. Blessings to your whole family. There are lots of people sending every good thought, praryer, wish and hope your way.
November 10th, 2006 at 8:40 pm
Still praying, and I promise not to stop.
November 10th, 2006 at 8:41 pm
We are not going anywhere. The plan to wait with the kids on the brain thing is good. Better to have some / most of the info before explaining the future options. The more info you have, the more detail you have, the better explaination. Rejoice in the hope, recover in the present, relish the past, reingiverate / reinvent your future with BJ. You have the chance to do all the things now that you thought last week may never happen. Do not let this opportunity pass. I do not think you will, just a reminder that the fact that there is a definate future with BJ is a huge step forward and should be a huge encouragement.
Know we are praising God for all that He has done, all that He will do and we are praying for continued good to great news. We will be praying until the end of this ordeal.
November 10th, 2006 at 8:58 pm
What Knarf said. We are not going anywhere. Hang in there. We are all keeping you guys in our prayers.
November 10th, 2006 at 9:00 pm
I’m may be new, but I’m not going anywhere. Praying for you every day…all of you.
November 10th, 2006 at 9:02 pm
Hang in there, jake (if I may call you by your supersecret real name). One morning before too long, this will all be a bad dream that you’ve awakened from, at last.
You are incredibly tough. Amazing what humans can do when they have to. She will be very proud of you when she reads this.
November 10th, 2006 at 9:20 pm
FWIW, I believe your approach to this is exactly right. Your poise and insight is extraordinary. You are a model for all of us for how to conduct oneself in adversity.
November 10th, 2006 at 10:05 pm
Keeping the faith and saying a prayer every day. Going nowhere. God put us all here for a reason.
November 10th, 2006 at 10:18 pm
Don’t you and Spanky (I like that name better) stay up too late eating candy. You know you both need your beauty sleep. Otherwise I’ll tell mom and she won’t let you guys play together anymore.
November 10th, 2006 at 10:25 pm
Whoever the heck all you people are, I want you to know how much it means that you comfort this family the way you do. I have this irrational desire to be THE comfort for my son and his family, but I just can’t do it. So, I hereby give you all my blessing and thanks for the gift of yourselves that you are giving. By doing so, I am hereby extending the family to include all of you. Until it comes time to suck off the money tit, that is! We love you.
November 10th, 2006 at 10:33 pm
Nuh-uhnh. I’m not going anyhwere! When that long haul is over I wanna see you guys at Disneyland!
November 10th, 2006 at 10:46 pm
AT,
I think your Mom and mine are related. You are very lucky to have such a loving family. But as I said in another of the posts eaten by the dog, which I think your sister read, I understand what you are doing here. My family (dam Irish) are very close and very open, but there were things that I couldn’t say during the tuff times to their faces or on the phone. I found at outlet to vent and pray and cry and just be really open on the internet. Looking back, who knows if I could have made it through without the support I received (which was miniscule compared to what you get…maybe I should get a blog). I can’t speak for everyone, but there will be no getting bored for me or my family who now are following also. I hope there is a big party when this is over and I can meet your lovely wife, your supportive and loving family and you, who I admire for your strength and honesty.
Damama,
Thank you for allowing us to support your family. I know you probably could be THE support, but it warms my heart that there are still so many people in this world that care and that you would let us help. The world could be a better place if we all could remember that we are a community and without each other we would all dissappear.
Love, prayers and a healing shawl for BJ coming from San Diego (I will send it to BF when it is complete and hopefully Jen will deliver it. And I then I expect to see it at the celebration when all this is over, even if it takes a while.)
Vickie and the miracle Ladybug
November 10th, 2006 at 10:55 pm
That would be great, Vickie. Something like that would be a clear and immediate indicator to BJ that she is loved by people she doesn’t know, but who (I hope) know her.
November 10th, 2006 at 10:59 pm
Still here in Virginia too…sending the loving vibes your way! I’m so proud of you for having the guts to keep this journal and allow all of us strangers (now friends and family) to come into your life and lift that girl of yours up in prayer! On my way to bed - will say a little prayer as I go and then again when I wake up to go pee in the middle of the night (I’ve had 3 kids…I do that) and then again when I get up in the morning and the process will begin again. Take care of yourself and your little ones so you can keep the strength that you have.
God Bless!
November 10th, 2006 at 11:01 pm
Ah, Tracy, thats one of the little things I miss, the sleepy cuddles when I feel her warm body get back in bed. It’ll be good to have that back!
November 10th, 2006 at 11:03 pm
AT - Keep hoping…keep praying…those warm, sleepy cuddles in the middle of the night will be back!
November 10th, 2006 at 11:07 pm
AT– I am with everyone else. You and your family has touched our lives. I can’t speak for everyone else, but I look forward to reading your blog years down the road and seeing you two grow old together and seeing pictures of your sons getting married. I believe.
Damama–You have raised some amazing children. The strength your family has is incredible. I am truly honored to have been a part of this.
November 10th, 2006 at 11:17 pm
AT-so long as you keep this blog going, you will faithful readers who will demonstrate an outpouring of love and support. We’re all praying for you and your family; and we all hope to continue reading about a life of recovery and love for both you and GAC.
November 10th, 2006 at 11:55 pm
I won’t be going anywhere. How often I change my feeds & my bookmarks = never. :) Glad to see you’re going to get some rest tonight, you deserve it.
November 11th, 2006 at 12:02 am
AT - I just found your site. Your situation hits me at my core. You are facing my great terror and my heart breaks for you. I will definitely keep you all in my prayers.
November 11th, 2006 at 12:45 am
AT,
Getting ready to pray myself to sleep. I pray that she comes back whole and strong and ready to love all her boys that miss her so. I pray for peace for you. I pray that this Thanksgiving will bring new meaning to you. I pray for your continued strength.
November 11th, 2006 at 1:07 am
I am awestruck by your grace and strength through this horrific ordeal. You are all in my thoughts and prayers.
November 11th, 2006 at 1:42 am
I am so, so, so sorry.
November 11th, 2006 at 7:32 am
I’m still popping in, reading and digesting all the information. You’re in my thoughts constantly, I’m hoping for the best and sending good karma your way. I’m waiting for that post when you tell us all she’s awake, she knows us, she’s gonna be fine - I know it’s coming, it has to come…
November 11th, 2006 at 8:02 am
Still reading - not leaving…waiting for the day BJ comes home.
November 11th, 2006 at 9:07 am
Definately not going anywhere. I think about you guys all day long and can’t wait until I can get back to my computer to check for the next update. Just curious, but have they checked for brain activity yet? I lost my dad 2 years ago. (It’s a horribly long story that I I hope to blog about some day.) He was attacked on Christmas Eve in Cleveland, TN and was on life support when we got there. In his case, there was no brain activity and his body had already begun to shut down so we knew we had lost him. If there’s brain activity, then you’ll know for certain that BJ is still in there trying to find her way out! Don’t lose hope - she’ll come home to you soon!
November 11th, 2006 at 9:10 am
Thanks everybody!!!