November 11th, 2006 by The Bosphorus
I slept like crap last night. Woke up with a mighty fierce cramp in my left leg. That’s happened for several nights now. It runs up my leg, makes me feel like I’ve got to run to bathroom. Got up 2:30, went to the bathroom. The kids are up at my folks place now, but still found myself tiptoeing around the creaky floor boards. I settled down in the kitchen and started to try to write down what’s going through my head. I ended up going round in circles, couldn’t work out of the corner I’d thought myself into. That’s the anxiety demon in my head pushing for resolution to questions I’ve lived with for fifteen years now.
So I went to stand and stretch, push-ups and let downs, sit and breathe. I have to let my thoughts surface and wisp away. They’re just thoughts, not real. Frustration isn’t a one to one relation with the rug I’m sitting on. The frustration is just thought, not real. My wrenched up stomach’s real though. There’s that connection between thought (spirit?) and body. One works on the other like two dogs chasing each other.
Two dogs running. Spirit and body tumbling after each other.
November 11th, 2006 at 11:41 am
Mebbe thats the chemicals and the meat in your head and body and whatnot messing with you, like you say.
Speaking of pains, my toe is a real pain in the ass. Hurts when I lean on it, but feels real good to pop.
You got it more on the ball than anybody I know, man.
November 11th, 2006 at 3:50 pm
“You got it more on the ball than anybody I know, man.”
Geez, AT. What about me?
November 11th, 2006 at 3:57 pm
You would, but the pregnancy has screwed up your clarity. Sorry!
November 11th, 2006 at 4:45 pm
I’m frowning at you right now.