November 17th, 2006 by Atomictumor
I’ve got a shirt, blanket, makeup to put on her.
I’m picking up the kids.
She is brain dead. November 17, 2006.
Good bye, BJ. I love you.
November 17th, 2006 by Atomictumor
I’ve got a shirt, blanket, makeup to put on her.
I’m picking up the kids.
She is brain dead. November 17, 2006.
Good bye, BJ. I love you.
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November 17th, 2006 at 12:07 pm
Dear AT, I can’t even begin to express my sorrow for you. Please know that an entire cyberworld of people are with you and are praying for you and even though you do not know most of us, you can use us all to lean on. I am sorry AT, truly sorry. I hope the healing process can begin for you soon. Much Love, Les
November 17th, 2006 at 12:08 pm
There are no words. Sorry is so pathetically inadequate.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:08 pm
I am saying a prayer to God, thanking him for allowing you guys to be a part of my life. You have touched me and my family. Tell demama she should be so proud to have raised such a beautiful, strong, intelligent young man. My heart pours love to you and your boys, I know you will miss her very much. She has touched us all, through you. May God bless you all.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:09 pm
AT, I am so sorry. I am truly at a loss for words.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:10 pm
I will arise and go now, and go to Innisfree,
And a small cabin build there, of clay and wattles made;
Nine bean rows will I have there, a hive for the honey bee,
And live alone in the bee-loud glade.
And I shall have some peace there, for peace comes dropping slow,
Dropping from the veils of the morning to where the cricket sings;
There midnight’s all a glimmer, and noon a purple glow,
And evening full of the linnet’s wings.
I will arise and go now, for always night and day
I hear lake water lapping with low sounds by the shore;
While I stand on the roadway, or on the pavements gray,
I hear it in the deep heart’s core.
“The Lake Isle of Innisfree”
William Butler Yeats
November 17th, 2006 at 12:10 pm
I am so very sorry. Having gone thru a similar experience 3 years ago, I had hoped the outcome would be different.
You and your family are in my prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:10 pm
I don’t remember how I stumbled across this blog, but I’ve been reading for about a week now, keeping up to date with your recent posts and delving into your archives with a Kleenex box beside me. I don’t know you from a hole in the head — hell, I’m even in the same country as you — but you and your family have been in my thoughts since I first clicked here.
My heart aches for you and your family. You’re all in my thoughts. I wish you comfort, love and support. I’m so sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:11 pm
AT and Boys,
May your guardian angels hold you very tightly today and always. God Bless you all.
With Deepest Sympathy, CMM
November 17th, 2006 at 12:12 pm
I am so very sorry AT.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:12 pm
I am so sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:13 pm
Oh no. I’m so unendlessly sorry. Goodbye GAC. I never got to know you personally, but I truly believe you are a wonderful woman. AT, MastaG, Pigpen and all the rest of you - I wish you strength and love to get through this awful time together.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:14 pm
Tears are rolling down my face - I am so sorry!
November 17th, 2006 at 12:15 pm
Know that she will always be there with you, looking out for you and protecting you and the boys. I am so, so sorry, AT. None of you deserve this and it is just so wrong. Know that we are all here for you. Let us help you. We have all come to care for you so very much. Sending love and prayers your way…
November 17th, 2006 at 12:15 pm
Hold close the time you have been given together. Take care of your boys. Tell her goodbye and Godspeed from all of us who have been holding her in our heart through you.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:16 pm
AT - I have been so very touched by this story. Thank you so much for sharing this very difficult and personal time with all of us. I think you are changing people every minute. I have cried and prayed for BJ, you, and your boys. I wish I could do something more. If you need anything just let me know.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:16 pm
I’m sorry. May she rest in peace. May you find peace also. You are loved.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:17 pm
Hold your boys tightly and remember her as the angel you knew. Heartfelt wishes for peace in your souls at this terrible time.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:18 pm
I am so sorry AT. May God keep you, the boys, and all your family wrapped in love and strength.
Godspeed.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:18 pm
Our family’s deepest condolences for your loss. Your family is in our thoughts and prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:19 pm
I am so so so sorry. My heart is breaking. We are here for you and the boys.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:19 pm
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Blessings and love to you all.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:20 pm
Sympathy or empathy will never be enough for what you have gone thru and are about to go thru. I hope the strength you have shown can persevere in the days, months and years ahead as you keep her memory alive, while closing this chapter and writing new chapters for you and the boys.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:22 pm
My deepest sympathies. She left the world a much better place by mothering your wonderful boys so well. You and they will always carry her with you.
And know that your story has touched so many of us and made us love a little more deeply and appreciate everything…everything… a little more every single day.
Warmly,
Katie Allison Granju and family
Knoxville
November 17th, 2006 at 12:22 pm
I am so, so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:22 pm
I’m so so sorry. Thoughts, prayers for you and your boys and the strength you have for each other and for her. Peace to you all - your story has touched my life even though we have never met and your faith and strength are remarkable. Stay strong, but take time to grieve in whatever way you need, and then hold fast to your many memories of a different time.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:25 pm
So very sorry. Be strong and hold on tight to your boys.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:25 pm
Like the others, words cannot express. Your family is in my prayers. May God greet BJ with love, and wrap your family in his loving arms.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:26 pm
As a new “blog friend” I feel so helpless. Together we can make BJ’s wish come true to become the diamond that we all know she is. Since most of us know only cybernames, could a close frined or family member set up an account at a local Oak Ridge bank. My heart aches to do something for this wonderful family. TOGETHER WE CAN DO “OODLES EXPENSIVE”!!!!! Please help me to make this happen.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:26 pm
I’m sorry AT, so sorry. Thank you for sharing this with the world, your words have had a lasting impact on me. I will continue to pray for you and your boys through the joys and struggles you have ahead of you. I hope that you find peace for you and your boys.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:27 pm
I’m sorry AT. I’ve been praying for you and your kids. Know that there is much support here for you and the little ones. May God bless you and hold you tight during this time.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:29 pm
I am so sorry. I am so very, very sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:29 pm
AT, I know it’s been said, but I’m so sorry. Thinking of you and your family always.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:29 pm
I have no words. I just want you to know that my heart is breaking for you. You remain in my family’s prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:31 pm
Bright eyes, burning like fire
Bright eyes, how can you close and fail?
How can the light that burned so brightly,
Suddenly burn so pale?
Bright eyes
November 17th, 2006 at 12:31 pm
AT. We’re with you.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:32 pm
AT, ive been reading your story constantly and I am so sorry for your loss. Please hug those boys a little tighter tonight, I will be praying for you and your family.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:32 pm
I…there’s…
Goddammit :(
November 17th, 2006 at 12:32 pm
I found your blog somehow a couple of days ago and have been checking in ever since. I don’t know what to say at this moment and cannot imagine what you are going through.
My husband & I are the same age as BJ - you have been so strong through this whole thing, it is simply amazing. All of you are in my thoughts. Stay strong for your little ones.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:33 pm
Even though I never got to meet her personally, I am honored to have been able to know her thru your words and your great love for her. I am grateful.
The coming days won’t be easy. You will think you won’t sometimes, but you WILL get through it.
This has touched so many hearts all over the world now. She will live on through your love for her and through your boys, most definitely. But she will also live on through the hearts of all these people your words have touched by sharing them, her, and yourself with us all. You and your boys will remain in my prayers indefinitely. I wish there were more I could do.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:33 pm
AT, as glad as I am that she is not in pain anymore - my heart breaks for you and the hole in your life. Once again, anything at all - we’re yours.
I am so proud of the way you have shared all of this. What a wonderful gift to all of us, and a loving tribute to BJ.
Peace my friend.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:34 pm
I burst into tears when I read this today. I am not as eloquent as you are, so I can’t express how sorry I am for your loss. BJ is loved by so many and so deeply. I really do believe you will all see her again some day.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:35 pm
I’m so sorry AT. This is devastating news, so many of us had so much hope for her and your family. My thoughts are with you and the boys daily as you struggle through this loss.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:35 pm
Another lurker here who has been closely following your story over the past couple of weeks and currently cannot control the tears.
My most sincere and deepest condolences for you and your families. The love for your wife has shone through in every word in every post. I am in awe of you.
Please know that there is so much love surrounding you and yours right now and will continue to be for as long as you need it and probably even longer.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:36 pm
You know what, I’ll ask my grandfathers to start up a welcoming committee. They’re good people. Tell her to be on the look-out for Nolan Boles and Harold Waterman. And my grandmother Myra, too. They’ll take care of her.
In the meantime, you’re doing wonderfully. She loves you and your sons. What a mother! What a wife! What love! What a treasure you’ve had. I’m so sorry this part has come to this.
You’re all in my thoughts and my heart.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:36 pm
Anything I could say seems so horribly inadequate. So, again, I will say, I’m so so very sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story with me. As painful as it has been to read every day, it has been an incredible journey in love and pain. Peace.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:36 pm
My friend, I am without words. I continue to keep you and your family in my thoughts.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:36 pm
I am so sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:36 pm
I’m crying right now for you both and you children. I’ve been reading this for a couple of weeks, I have had the highest hopes and checked it every day three or four times hoping for the best. This post literally shocked me this morning. I just want you to know that I will think of your family for the rest of my life and keep you in my prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:36 pm
You don’t know me, but BJ and I had a class together over the summer. I have been following this post for 2 weeks now hoping and praying for BJ and your family. I am so very sorry….please let me know if I can help in any way.
You have such an inner strength about you. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your boys…
November 17th, 2006 at 12:37 pm
I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for letting us all in and sharing this difficult time with us. God bless.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:41 pm
I am praying that God’s grace is with you and your family and that you may find peace again someday. I am so sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:41 pm
Dearest AT,
I can’t stop crying, trying but it is hard. Please know that my love and your team at work are with you, and our prayers will never stop. I was so positive that things were going to turn around for your precious BJ and you and your family. My heart goes out to both parents and your boys - and may God’s peace, strength, and wisdom be yours every minute. He will continue to envelope you in his love and grace for such times as this. You are right, you will once again be together. You have made so many friends during your time of sharing your heart, your sorrows, your joys with us, most of all your beautiful love that you share. Many of us can learn from you - We love you and are here for you my friend. I am so very sorry for all that you have been through. May God’s love and peace keep you strong in HIM.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:41 pm
… no … damn it.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:43 pm
Mitakuye Oyasin!
November 17th, 2006 at 12:43 pm
There are no words to express how deeply attached I have become to you and your family and how deeply saddened I am.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:45 pm
Remember
by Christina Rossetti
Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more, day by day,
You tell me of our future that you plann’d:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.
You, the boys, and your extended family are in our family’s thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry. Thank you for sharing this experience with us. I hope that you will be able to continue to share and that our being here will be of comfort to you.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:48 pm
bos and eaves,
you let me and josh know what we can do … let us have the kids - yours and theirs - for a day or a while or during arrangments. just bring all 5 of them over and we will take their minds off of it. give AT big hugs from me (on account of i don’t know him that well) and hug each other and love him and the boys for me … i am so sad for you all.
{sigh} so sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:49 pm
I’m so sorry. I’ve been reading since 11/3 and praying for a better outcome for your family. I hope that you can all find some peace in this.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:50 pm
I’ve been reading your blog for the past week. You and your family have been in my thoughts every day. I’m so sorry that this has happened to your family. I will continue to keep you all in my thoughts. May you draw strength from the many people who are praying for and thinking of you all right now.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:51 pm
AT, I’m so, so, sorry. My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:51 pm
Thank you AT for sharing your journey with the world. This destination is not what anyone would have wished for you and BJ (the boys, families and close friends, etc). Hell, we all wanted BJ to read this and know how much you loved her and how your words were able to touch so many people, and how so many people were praying/wishing/hoping on her and your behalf. Blessings and strength to you and yours. You will remain in my thoughts.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:51 pm
Although I have never met you or BJ, I feel like I know you both through your words. I have been keeping up with your blog, praying for good news each time I check in. I know how badly you wanted to bring the love of your life back home.
I am so, so sorry to hear this news, and I know that there are really no words that can provide much comfort at a time like this. But I will tell you that you and your boys continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Take care of yourself.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:54 pm
AT - I am so sorry. BJ was an extroardinary woman. I feel privileged to have known her. Thanks for sharing with us. I have been touched by your words so many times in the past few weeks. My prayers are with you and your boys.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:57 pm
AT,
I am at a loss of words, especially ones (if there are such ones) that would make you and the boys feel any better or that help to take away some if not all of your pain. If you need us to be by you or the boys side this weekend we can come by. I love you and your family so much and will keep you in my prayers. :(
November 17th, 2006 at 12:57 pm
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my own dad 17 years ago today. I found your site through busymom, and have been praying for your family everyday. I had really hoped and thought there was going to be a different outcome. I wish I could be as eloquent as the other posters,but please know I’ll be praying for your peace.
November 17th, 2006 at 12:58 pm
I shall look as if I were dead; and that will not be true…”
I said nothing.
“You understand… it is too far. I cannot carry this body with me. It is too heavy.”
I said nothing.
“But it will be like an old abandoned shell. There is nothing sad about old shells…”
i am so sorry for your loss and i know that these words are not much but they are all that i have to offer as comfort. my offering is small. but my appreciation for what you have given thru your blog is endless. you and yours are in my thoughts and prayers.
(from the little prince)
from
November 17th, 2006 at 1:01 pm
I am so very sorry. There are no words to truly explain how very sorry I am. My heart is breaking for you and the boys. Please let me or Evan know if there is anything you need. I am so sorry…….
November 17th, 2006 at 1:02 pm
Words will do very little right now, I’m sure. Know that you are thought of and we are all holding you in our thoughts and prayers. I’m especially praying for you and the boys.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:05 pm
I can hardly find a single word…I’m so, so very sorry for your loss.
God’s peace be with you and your family.
What is the internet good for if not to unite people, complete strangers, in thought and prayer? She has quite a community here - connected by your powerful words and her amazing strength. I feel so fortunate to have come to know your family in some small way from your writings here. May the many hearts with you this day be a source of some comfort in the days to come.
You have said a couple of times of the way you felt like God was working through her…I feel strongly that He must have been, but He has been working through and in you as well, and will continue to.
Psalm 34:18 - the Lord is close to the broken hearted…
November 17th, 2006 at 1:06 pm
Like the others said words can not do much now, but know that we are all praying and will continue to pray for you, the boys, your family, and your friends. We are just down the road in Knoxville, you all need something contact us. We are and will be here. We are not going away. Still praying.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:06 pm
I’ll pray for peace and strength for you and your family. BJ already has peace. I’m so very sorry, AT.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:07 pm
Condolences my friend. It is a terrible waste. Be as brave as you have been. This is such a terrible thing to happen for the unknown reasons. Take care.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:07 pm
I’m another lurker who has been reading along, hoping and praying and pulling for you both. I am so, so sorry…
November 17th, 2006 at 1:09 pm
I’m so sorry, AT.
Your words have been an amazing tribute to her. None of us who have read them will ever forget her.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:09 pm
I came across your blog two days ago. Yesterday was such a good day, I was so hopeful for BJ’s recovery. I was saddened to see God has called her home early. :( Reading through your posts I was so touched by the love story between the two of you. Know that you and your family are in my prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:11 pm
I wish there were something I could say, but it’s all been said. My heart hurts reading your story.
A lot of us (strangers like myself) would like to help financially — I don’t think a PayPal link would be inappropriate.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:11 pm
I’m so sorry, AT. Stay brave for you and your kids.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:13 pm
It was supposed to just be a bad case of the flu. She was supposed to just get up after a couple of days of feeling like shit, hop on AT and say we were all making a big deal out of nothing. This isn’t what was supposed to happen!
She was supposed to get better, finish her beer chair and become a famous designer.
Her last words posted to the Shout box about not waisting away were not supposed to be her last post here!
This wasn’t supposed to happen. She wasn’t supposed to leave us!
We’re here for you and your family Jake and We’re more than shoulders, we’re here to help however we can.
God? He is the biggest bitch of them all.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:15 pm
That there
That’s not me
I go
Where I please
I walk through walls
I float down the Liffey
I’m not here
This isn’t happening
I’m not here
I’m not here
In a little while
I’ll be gone
The moment’s already passed
Yeah it’s gone
And I’m not here
This isn’t happening
I’m not here
I’m not here
Strobe lights and blown speakers
Fireworks and hurricanes
I’m not here
This isn’t happening
I’m not here
I’m not here
November 17th, 2006 at 1:15 pm
I had the precious opportunity to visit with BJ and her family this week, just yesterday. My heart and tears go out to her family. AT–we’re all praying for you and appreciating the candid words you’ve shared. May continued strength be with your family.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:18 pm
I woke up this morning and the first thing that came to mind was to check to see how you and BJ were doing today. I just started reading this two days ago (went back a few months) and I can’t tell you how touched I am by the love you share with and for your wife, and how obvious it is that this is a once in a lifetime true love.
I’m so sorry for you, your family and friends…and your children. I have you in my prayers; know that there are many people all over the world giving thanks to you for sharing your story, and sending thoughts and prayers your way.
I know tonight I’m going to race home to give my family the biggest hugs & kisses, as our time together is so valued and appreciated.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:21 pm
AT-
I have been reading and keeping up with BJ’s status for only 10 short days now. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I had such hope, as I know you did as well. I am so sorry. I pray that your souls find each other and you shall be happy together again. I pray for peace for your children. I pray that with an excellent father like you they can continue to move on in the future. I pray that this didn’t happen. I am so sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:22 pm
My prayers are that you and your family find strength and peace. Thank you for sharing your beautiful B.J.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:22 pm
There is a sacredness in tears.
They are not the mark of weakness,
but of power.
They speak more eloquently
than 10,000 tongues.
They are the messengers
of overwhelming grief,
of deep contrition,
and of unspeakable love.
- Washington Irving
you and the boys (hell your entire family and friends) are in my thoughts, prayers, heart…. wishing you peace, strength and overwhelming love in the days ahead. i am so so sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:22 pm
I am so sorry.
Your family is in our prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:22 pm
Condolences and deepest sympathies to you and your family from the Neals. We are very sorry for your loss.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:23 pm
Sending love, prayers, and all the strength I can muster.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:24 pm
I’m so sorry. So sorry. Prayers for comfort and peace.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:25 pm
I wish for you and your family peace and strength. I am so sorrry for your loss.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:27 pm
You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:29 pm
Count me in as one of the many ‘net strangers who found your blog right after this awful thing started. I’ve been following it every day and hoping for the best, of course. Your fierce and whole-hearted love for your wife has touched my heart in a way that is hard to put in words. Thank you so much for sharing these innermost thoughts. Wishing you grace, peace and strength from a fellow east tennesseean.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:30 pm
We’re thinking of you and the boys. We are so sorry for your loss. If there is anything we can do, please let us know.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:32 pm
I just can’t wrap my head around this. How a perfectly healthy 29 year old wife and mother of two can be fine one minute and dying the next. My heart is breaking for you and your family.
Rest easy BJ. May God walk beside you on your journey.
“Low lie the fields of Athenry
Where once we watched the small free birds fly
Our love was on the wing
We had dreams and songs to sing
It’s so lonely round the fields of Athenry”
November 17th, 2006 at 1:33 pm
Goodbye BJ, we love you and will miss you and your beautiful and unique personality.
See you in another life…
November 17th, 2006 at 1:33 pm
“Everyone is mortal, but I know one thing that never dies: The memory of a life well lived.” (Havamal)
BJ touched many lives, of those who she knew and of those who she never came to know. May her name and deeds be never forgotten, so that she might live in our hearts and souls forever.
My condolences to you and your family, and wishes of strength and resolve in the days ahead.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:34 pm
I’m so sorry. I have been following this ever since you were linked over at Nashville is Talking and my heart just ached for total strangers when I read this morning’s posts. I prayed for you this morning and will do so again–that God will reveal Himself to you through all of this and give you the real peace only He can offer.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:35 pm
I am very sorry for your huge loss. From what I have read GAC/Bj was the most special person in many peoples lives. She has been called to another place and you will meet again. Be strong for those boys, live her through them.
God Speed to you and your family. Kym
November 17th, 2006 at 1:38 pm
I don’t know what to say. Still at a loss for good words. I just hope that someday it helps to know that so many people cared, regardless of distance. And that BJ’s experience, and yours, did affect others and change lives in small and big ways.
Congratulations on continuing to show grace and style through an unimaginable ordeal, and I hope it gets easier. Soon.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:42 pm
My son died nine years ago on this day. Now he may share his day with a beautiful woman. My heart goes out to you. I am sorry.
My thoughts and prayers will continue to be with you and your family.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:44 pm
I was at the bedside of my mother, who I thought died before her time too. Believe it or not, you have been given a very precious gift being able to go through this, and you have in turn, translated it for all of us. thank you for communicating to all of us, and love to you and BJ and kids.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:48 pm
AT we have grown to love you, BJ and the boys. Your sweet wife will be missed.
We will continue to hold you, your boys and your entire family in our hearts, our thoughts and our prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:48 pm
You have touched me and my life deeply. Godspeed to you. I pray for your strength, and for your beautiful boys.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:50 pm
I am so sorry. Hold your boys close and cherish the memories that you have.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:52 pm
Bless you and your family, AT - may you have peace and all the strength you need. :( :( :(
November 17th, 2006 at 1:52 pm
If there is any thing I can do please call. Im so sorry. Get those boys and hold them tight. Im so sorry. Im so sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 1:54 pm
I’m so sorry for your loss. Know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:00 pm
I, too have been touched by your devotion to your wife. I’m so sorry for your loss.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:01 pm
I can’t add anything else to what has already been said. Bennie, Joan, Jessie, & Ben want to tell you we love you and will continue to pray for your family for a long, long time. We are so very sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:02 pm
Words are not enough. I have followed your story for the last two weeks. Daily I’ve checked for posts and your family is in my thoughts constantly.
BJ’s fierce struggle has touched so many lives, including those of my own family. Thank you for sharing BJ with us, total strangers. Thank you for sharing your life, your hope, and your unyielding strength. And thank you for sharing your pain.
I will never forget your family. Wishing you and your entire family continued peace and strength.
Carrie Patterson and the Patterson family
Atlanta, GA
November 17th, 2006 at 2:03 pm
Oh my god, I’m sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:04 pm
I don’t know what to say. Words are not enough. I began following your blog 2 weeks ago and have checked daily for updates. Rejoicing with you, hoping with you and sharing in your sadness.
BJ fought a difficult battle. Thank you for sharing with us, total strangers your strength, your love, your courage and your bravery. And thank you for sharing your pain.
You have touched all of our lives. And I thank you for that. Please know that your entire family will be in our thoughts. Wishing you peace and continued strength.
Carrie & Family
Atlanta, GA
November 17th, 2006 at 2:08 pm
Dear AT…I’m so sorry that I cannot speak…
November 17th, 2006 at 2:12 pm
I am so very sorry, AT. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:15 pm
Sending lots of virtual hugs your way, and prayers for a peaceful heart for you and the rest of the family. I am so, so very sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:19 pm
I’m so sorry for the loss of your dear wife. I just want to let you know you and your family are in the thoughts and prayers of many.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:20 pm
I am sorry to hear. BJ was a great friend. Again my prayers and with you.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:21 pm
I’m so sorry. I will keep you and your boys in my thoughts, prayers and my heart.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:22 pm
This Is truly heartbreaking.I am so sorry this has happened.You have alot of support AT.Many Hugs and Prayers comming to you,The boys and family.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:23 pm
Along with everyone else, I am so saddened by this news. Thank you for sharing with us this terrible journey you have been on and are continuing to go on. Thoughts and prayers go with you now and for many, many days to come.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:25 pm
Brother Jake,
I am so honored that you shared these days with us, and so inadequate to express my heartfelt condolences to you. I am so sorry you never got to bring BJ back to NYC. Maybe her spirit is here now, somewhere among the holiday crowds. Maybe you’ll bring the boys to see the Big Apple somday as you help them keep their mother’s memory. I never met your beloved BJ but I know I will remember her, and you, for a very long time.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:25 pm
Time takes care of the wound, so I can believe.
You had so much to give, you thought I couldnt see.
Gifts for boot heels to crush, promises deceived
I had to send it away to bring us back again.
Our eyes and bodies brighten silent waters, deep.
Your precious daughter in the other room, asleep.
A kiss goodnight from every stranger that I meet.
I had to send it away to bring us back again.
Morning theft. unpretender left, ungraceful.
True self is what brought you here, to me.
A place where we can accept this love.
Friendship battered down by useless history,
Unexamined failure.
What am I still to you?
Some thief who stole from you?
Or some fool drama queen whose chances were few?
That brings us to who we need,
A place where we can save
A heart that beats as both siphon and reservoir.
Youre a woman, Im a calf.
Youre a window, Im a knife.
We come together making chance into starlight.
Meet me tomorrow night, or any day you want.
I have no right to wonder just how, or when.
You know the meaning fits. theres no relief in this.
I miss my beautiful friend.
I have to send it away to bring her back again.
“Morning Theft” by Jeff Buckley
November 17th, 2006 at 2:25 pm
AT I am so very very sorry. Your family is in my prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:25 pm
I posted this on the shoutbox and was advised to post for future use. (Thanks Meice).
AT has said to use theblueberryfarm.com address. A mailing address is on that site and mail, donations, etc. would get to AT and family.
AT we really want to help. I know it’s hard to accept donations, etc., but your pain and love have meant something to so many and we want to comfort somehow, some way. “I’m sorry” just isn’t enough. We have essentially fallen in love with your love for BJ and want to do whatever we can to ease some hardships.
You’ve made an impact on so many. Let us help pass it on …
November 17th, 2006 at 2:26 pm
Saying sorry seems so useless.
Saying you will always be together - is true - but just not the way you dreamed about.
Once when I went through a heat ache - nothing like yours.
A dear friend told me don’t ask why. There just will never be an answere that will help.
For every tear that is dropping right now for you and yours Let it help sooth you later.
Know at that moment in the future when you are not sure how you are going to make it we still care and someone out there will be having a thought and a prayer for you.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:27 pm
I’m so sorry. I can’t imagine the pain.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:28 pm
Oh no, oh no, oh no, oh no. I have been following your blog for about a week, and hoping and praying for you and your family. It’s obvious that GAC/BJ was a very smart and special woman, a wonderful friend, wife, and mother. I am so very sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:28 pm
There are any number of platitudes and sayings, all meant to be consoling, that I could use right now, but things like that seem cliched and insincere to me right now.
I am deeply, deeply sorry, AT. I will continue to pray for you, the boys, and GAC’s soul.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:29 pm
I’m so terribly sorry for your loss.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:30 pm
My heart aches for you, the boys, BJ, and all the lives that were touched by this; not only today, but as this whole thing has unfolded.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:30 pm
I am so sorry for you and those boys. Sorry seems so pale. An old saying but seemingly true, death is hardest on those left behind.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:31 pm
So sorry. My best to you all, and strength to you for all of the next stuff.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:36 pm
I am sorry you know I don’t have the words that many of your posters have, we scots are brought up not to show emotion but I was crying today I never really thougth this could happen, but she will be so missed.
I had a hundred lit conversations with BJ before I ever met any of the rest of you, she was one of the first people I met when I arrived in this town. She was one of the folk that made me feel like I was at home here.
If you need to use my house for anything or need me to look after the kids for as long as you want or anything else within my power to give, you got it. If you want to talk later you got it.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:36 pm
AT, in the days, weeks, and months ahead, you’ll need to rely on the strength of family and friends. Take advantage of that support when you or the boys need it. You’ve also made an army of new friends here, all of us bound by your powerful telling of BJ’s story and your love for her. Don’t ever forget this: if you need any support from the anonymous friends you’ve made (whether it’s financial or otherwise), all you have to do is ask. Your new-found friends will deliver; I can promise you that.
I’ve never had the pleasure of meeting you or BJ; I only know you through your words on this site. But it’s enough for me to know that I’d be more than willing to help you in any way you need. You have my deepest sympathies, and I wish the only best of future days for you, MastaG, and Pigpen.
Strength, man. And love. Lots of it.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:37 pm
My heart breaks for you. I only started reading your site a couple days ago, but the love you and GAC share is amazing. And like you said - you will meet again in another lifetime. You are an amazingly strong person and I admire that you have reached out for support through this site. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your entire family.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:39 pm
I just signed on and was so hopeful when I saw that there were 7 new posts. I know that words probably are not all that helpful right now, but my heart breaks for you and your family. I don’t know what else I can do for you other than pray for you and hope that you feel the strength of all our prayers and good thoughts and that God will lift both of you up.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:40 pm
I am a stranger who arrived here by word of another blog and have been lurking for the past week with frequent visits.
Your words and posts have moved me beyond comprehension. If strangers can reach out to one another via the web, that is what I’m doing.
I am so sorry for all of this. Truly.
I know this is a start of a new journey for you and your boys. I can’t imagine a more loving guide than who you have revealed yourself to be. For that, your boys are lucky.
Hugs.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:40 pm
AT
We here a the Goose household are still praying for you and your family. We are so sorry to hear this news,Not what we have been wanting to hear. Please know our hearts and love go out to you and your family. Again we are sorry and will continue to keep you and your family in our daily prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:40 pm
Dear AT
I’ve been reading your posts for the past few weeks and have had my breath taken away countless times by the way your love for BJ shines through in your writing. You and BJ had touched so many lives. My heart goes out to you and your little boys, and to BJ’s mom and dad as well. You are in my thoughts.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:43 pm
I wish that I had some great words to comfort you and ease the pain that I cannot even imagine.
I have none.
I am so sorry for your loss. Please know how many people are praying for you and your boys. May God bless your family.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:45 pm
I am so very sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:46 pm
I’m so sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:46 pm
I have only found your site a few weeks ago, after BJ was in the hospital and I have been deeply effected by your posts and by what has been happening. I check in here often throughout the day and your words are never far from my thoughts. You’re connection and relationship with BJ is very similar to me and my love.
I am so very sorry for you and your boys. Love like this is not something that can be broken or lost. You will find each other again and she will always be your sweet girl.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:48 pm
I am so sorry.
Words are not enough.
November 17th, 2006 at 2:52 pm
I’m just Gobsmacked… words fail me, and I’m afraid. Afraid that what we’re given, and what we earn in life can be taken away without warning.
Thinking of you and your family, may you find the strength you need in the coming days to help you through such a difficult time in your lives.
{{{{hugs}}}}
November 17th, 2006 at 2:52 pm
My heart continues to break with this news.
calling all angels calling all angels
walk me through this one
don’t leave me alone
calling all angels calling all angels
we’re tryin’ we’re hopin’
we’re hurtin’ we’re lovin’
we’re cryin’ we’re callin’
cause we’re not sure how this goes
November 17th, 2006 at 3:00 pm
To all the Kilpatrick’s and families- It’s Fish, Jenny’s friend from Chattanooga. Jake- I want you to know, it’s not easy, but you will get through this. I lost my husband 3 yrs ago while I was 7 months pregnant. You’ve got those wonderful kids………. that WILL get you through it. It did for me. I want you all to know, I’ve got so many people praying right now for you guys. I am sorry.
Love you guys, you have always been my family.
Fish
November 17th, 2006 at 3:05 pm
Oh, no. We’re strangers and I’ve commented 3x today. I feel so bad for you and the boys. I just hate what happened. Thank you for being so honest and letting us strangers know GAC and your family. We’ll be here for you. Condolences.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:05 pm
Oh AT. You and your family have been in my thoughts constantly for two weeks. I cannot express the words to tell you how very sad I am. Having lost two family members, one at a young age with an 11 year old, I know a little of how you feel right now. Time does help heal a bit but BJ will always be a part of you. Your boys are blessed to have you and their grandparents. You have touched so many lives and I pray that the thoughts coming your way will help give you strength.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:08 pm
I’m so, so sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:08 pm
AT, I am so sorry, I don’t really know what to say. I will continue to pray for you and your boys.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:08 pm
She’ll never be truly gone; she’ll always be in your heart and your memories, but more than that, I believe that her soul will always be with you and your boys. The love that you share certainly isn’t wiped away by death.
You, your family and loved ones are in my prayers… I hope that you will have peace, hope and light despite the dark times that you are living through.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:15 pm
I’m so sorry. I wish there were more healing words but that’s all I can come up with. SO SORRY. I know you feel lucky to have known and loved your wife but the truth of the matter is that she was lucky to have been known and loved by you, such a dedicated person who through it all has seen the full spectrum of the vows “for better or worse, sickness & in health”. Take good care.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:16 pm
I am so very sorry. Much love to you and your family. Thank you for touching us with your love.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:16 pm
I, also, found you after your dear BJ went into the hospital, and have come by every day to check on you all. I am so heart broken to see today’s post. I am so sorry. The world has lost a beautiful light today. You and the boys (and your extended families) are in my thoughts and prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:23 pm
Peace be with your family.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:26 pm
Prayers for you and your family.
Peace.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:29 pm
I wish I had the words. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:29 pm
I’m so very sorry. Like other people who have commented, I hope you and your children (and BJ) find peace.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:30 pm
Have been lurking the whole time. Words cannot describe the feelings of love, joy & pain you & your family have gone thru. Peace & Love to all of you.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:34 pm
My heart aches for you and your family. You are all in my thoughts and prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:38 pm
I wish I knew the perfect thing to say, but instead let me just say with all my heart: I’m so sorry. Your family and friends are in my thoughts.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:38 pm
Sorry just doesn’t seem like enough. But no other words seem appropriate.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:39 pm
I’m sorry, so very, very sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:43 pm
I am so, so sorry. I wish I knew something deep or wise to say, but nothing else feels right. I am so sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:48 pm
Don’t know if this is good or bad, but I made you a banner to add to your blog.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:48 pm
I am so heartbreakingly sorry…
November 17th, 2006 at 3:51 pm
I’m so, so sorry. She will be remembered, even by strangers. I wish you all peace.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:51 pm
Like others, no words seem good enough to say right now.
Remember, you are not alone. Please let us know anything that we can do to help you during this time.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:52 pm
Just another lurker, coming out to tell you how my heart is breaking for you. Sending thoughts and so much sympathy for you and your boys.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:52 pm
i’m so sorry my thoughts and prayers go with you and the boys. we all love you guys and u r prayed for everyday! i know it is hard now but we’ll all get to meet her again some day!!! Stay strong!and im very sorry!
November 17th, 2006 at 3:53 pm
Goodbye, GAC.
I love you. I miss you.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:54 pm
I’ve been thinking about you and your family all day. I wish there was something I could do or say to take your pain away. I’ve just finshed putting my Chrismas tree up (my kids have been begging me) and as I put the angel on the top of the tree a few minutes ago, a wave of emotion came over me as I lit up the angel. I believe that your angel will be with you always, keeping you and your boys safe. Keep her memory alive in all that you do. You will never really be without her, just as you will never be without the online support you have here.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:56 pm
I’ve been reading and hoping and rooting for BJ and not commenting because I wasn’t sure what to say. I’m so very sorry for you and your family.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:58 pm
I am so deeply sorry. May your home always be filled with her spirit and love.
November 17th, 2006 at 3:59 pm
It’s a beautiful banner Mrs Groovy. Simple and short yet filled with so much information, just like I imagine BJ’s life has come to be.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:01 pm
Bos & Eaves - Wanted to say y’all are in my thoughts & prayers as well. As well all of AT’s extended friends and family. I know this is so very hard on you all as well. Praying for strength and peace for all of you today and all the days and weeks ahead.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:02 pm
AT, thank you for sharing your painful yet beautiful journey during what turned out to be your last few weeks with your wife. I didn’t know her and I don’t know you personally, but she sounds like an amazing woman and your love for her is both evident and truly inspiring. That love is what is going to get you through the next few weeks, then months and years. I wish you peace and comfort.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:03 pm
Yours is a love story for the ages. Forever.
Peace to you all.
CLC
November 17th, 2006 at 4:05 pm
May God bless and keep you.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:07 pm
I am so sorry. May the Peace of the Lord be with you.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:07 pm
Your love for your wife has touched so many people. Your vigil has enriched so many lives. B.J lives just a little in each of us. Maybe it will makes us hug our children a little harder, or love a little deeper, maybe, just maybe, what you have given us will forever change how we look at the world as a whole. I know it has me. Thank you and may you find the strength of you family and friends to get you through this horrible loss.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:08 pm
Sorry has been said a hundred plus times today. It feels empty to say. I’ll continue praying for you, AT, and all those that BJ touched and all who love her.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:09 pm
Amen Cheri!
November 17th, 2006 at 4:10 pm
Words are insufficient under these circumstances so I offer peaceful silence. Peace to you all.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:11 pm
I only found you today, but I’m glad I did. Simply so I can say that I am so very sorry for the loss of your wife. I’ve been reading your archives and you are an amazing husband, and amazing man and an amazing father. Your kids are very lucky to have you to help them through this. Peace.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:11 pm
Godspeed, BJ.
You were loved, and loved well.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:14 pm
Please accept my sympathies for you and your families, and my thoughts and prayers for the days, weeks, months that lie ahead.
I stumbled upon this blog last night and started reading through the month of November. I couldn’t stop reading, because underlying every single unimaginable bad turn was love, love, LOVE. It was a shock to see your last entry, which was posted after I’d first logged on. I returned this morning, sure that there would be a different ending, and instead find these waves of truth and love and support and inspiration. They move me; I fervently hope they comfort you.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:17 pm
My condolences. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:17 pm
I was directed to your blog a week or so ago…and I’ve been holding out hope ever since. Hug your boys tight…
Sometimes life just sucks.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:17 pm
I have never been here before but was just directed here. I can’t begin to know what your sorrow is right now, nor will I try to console. I just wanted to send my deepest sympathies for you and your family, and I will pray that your lovely wife goes on to a better place and goes peacefully. God Bless.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:18 pm
I am so sorry for your loss. God bless you and yours.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:22 pm
Jake:
There are no words to tell you how sorry we are. Please know you are in our thoughts and prayers and we are all there for you and the kids.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:22 pm
I can only hope in my lifetime I touch as many people as your love has. An unintentional accomplishment by you that I will be forever grateful. A longer look at my mother, a softer tone with my husband, a lingering touch on my doggies’ velvet head…all of these things I barely noticed a few days ago…you have awoken me. Thank you for sharing your soul. May you soon find peace.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:25 pm
I, like most on here, don’t even know the parties involved. I have been lurking for a bit, even before this tragedy. I am not going to try and find words right now, just wanting to say how sorry I truly am.
I know since all of this started, after reading all the heartfelt emotion pouring from your keyboard the past weeks, I have been hugging my wife and children a little tighter.
I am sorry for your loss, but you are indeed an inspiration to me. I wish you the best in the future and look forward to one day meeting you and the boys.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:25 pm
I’m so sorry for your loss. Life has to end, but love doesn’t. Look for BJ in your dreams … because she’ll be there. God bless you all.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:25 pm
I am sorry for the ordeal which you and your loved ones have gone through. I awoke this morn’ and discovered your life. Spent the past two hours discovering you, the children, the parents, and most importantly the lady you love.
May God’s love bring peace to you and your family.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:26 pm
I’m so sorry. Praying and praying and praying for your family.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:26 pm
I am so very sorry. You and your boys are in my heart and prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:27 pm
I’m so sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:27 pm
Oh, no no no no. AT, my heart goes out to you and the boys. I’ve been so touched by your love for your wife that I will never be the same. Godspeed to the newest star in the sky.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:27 pm
Please know that you and she will dance among the stars one day. My prayers for you and your loved ones…..she would want you to be brave, and strong. Peace be in your heart and soul.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:29 pm
AT - Peace be with her soul and with you too. My prayers will continue to help you find your way. Your sons will need you now more than ever. They’ll be fine…you’ll be fine.
God Bless BJ’s Soul
November 17th, 2006 at 4:30 pm
So sorry for your loss. May the peace of God be with BJ and all of you, today and in the days to come.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:31 pm
Deepest sympathy to you and your family. Hold those babies tight. You will be each others strength and God will hold you close. I came here thru other blogs I read and kept returning to check in on you. You will all be in my prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:31 pm
I do not know you or your family, but I came to see this blog via an old co-worker’s blog on myspace. I have spent a lot of time reading today and find myself wrapped up in your story, tears streaming down by this last post. I am so sorry for everything that has happened…even though saying “sorry” seems so insignificant. I will pray for you and your family as you go through this. As you know already, you two will meet again one day and it will be as if no time has passed at all. Stay strong as I see you are. You are in my thoughts.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:34 pm
I’m so sorry for your loss. My family will keep you and your kids in our prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:35 pm
Thank you so much for sharing your story with the world. I cannot express how sorry I am for your loss. As a woman near the same age as your wife and also as a mother, I am horrified by what you have endured in the last 2 weeks. Please accept my sincere condolences in your time of loss. I hope that you can find peace in knowing that she lived a good (if short) life and she left a legacy of love.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:36 pm
at, i am so very sorry for your loss,you nd your family will be in our prayers
November 17th, 2006 at 4:36 pm
I love you AT.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:38 pm
Well, he does too, but that was from me. I love you. I love Pigpen. I love Masta G. You’re always in my prayers. God bless you guys.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:38 pm
Many thoughts and prayers with you and your family right now.
There is nothing to fear, nothing to doubt.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:40 pm
It is so inadequate but, I am so very sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:40 pm
So long BJ. We love you and we’ll see you later.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:41 pm
Words cannot express my sorry. Thank you for sharing your beautiful wife and your love for her. Your children will always have mommy in their souls. I have been moved so deeply by your writings. Love and prayers for your family.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:42 pm
There really are no words… but to thank you again for sharing your story and love for this woman and family. You have touched our lives and we are better for it.
Our prayers will remain with you. A very special prayer to BJ with the knowledge that your newest guardian angel will watch over you all forever.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:44 pm
I’m so very sorry. I can tell from the way you write about her that she was an amazing woman. I’m just so very, very sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:45 pm
For we know that when this earthly tent we live in is taken down (that is, when we die and leave this earthly body), we will have a house in heaven, an eternal body made for us by God himself and not by human hands. We grow weary in our present bodies, and we long to put on our heavenly bodies like new clothing. For we will put on heavenly bodies; we will not be spirits without bodies. While we live in these earthly bodies, we groan and sigh, but it’s not that we want to die and get rid of these bodies that clothe us. Rather, we want to put on our new bodies so that these dying bodies will be swallowed up by life. God himself has prepared us for this, and as a guarantee he has given us his Holy Spirit.
So we are always confident, even though we know that as long as we live in these bodies we are not at home with the Lord. For we live by believing and not by seeing. Yes, we are fully confident, and we would rather be away from these earthly bodies, for then we will be at home with the Lord. So whether we are here in this body or away from this body, our goal is to please him. For we must all stand before Christ to be judged. We will each receive whatever we deserve for the good or evil we have done in this earthly body.
2 Corinthians 5:1 - 10
November 17th, 2006 at 4:49 pm
I am so truly sorry to learn of this, this morning, AT.
My thoughts and wishes for strength to all who loved BJ, and had her love in return.
She will always be the most sparkly and unique diamond of them all.
Shine on, BJ.
x
November 17th, 2006 at 4:50 pm
What a lucky person you are to have had such a wonderful wife and friend. Reading your posts, it just shows how truly blessed you have been. May those memories sustain you as you move foward in life. Stay safe and hug your boys often.
November 17th, 2006 at 4:53 pm
You are such an amazing man. You have shown us through all of this your love for her. I am glad that we have been able to go through this with you and was sure hoping that it wouldn’t come to this. Please know that you have touched so many people deeply. I hope that you and BJ and the kiddos have felt all the prayers for you from all over the world. Please keep writing as soon as you can so we can all be there for you. I know I don’t know you personally but I have been forever changed with your writings. May you and your family feel God’s loving arms holding you and helping you make it through. There is a song that I listened to after I lost my dad and sister in 1999. It is by a Christian group called FFH. It is called “One of These DAys” . It says that One of these days I’m gonna see the hands that took the nails for me, one of these days I’m gonna walk the streets of gold that were paved for me, one of these days I’m gonna hold the key to the mansion build for me. It is a beautiful song and it made me think of my dad and sister in heaven holding his hand. May God Bless you all.
November 17th, 2006 at 5:21 pm
God bless you and your boys. I pray for your strength for the journey, and offer thanks for sharing your life with us. You have honored her.
November 17th, 2006 at 6:43 pm
I am so sorry. AT, your powerful and honest words thouched so many hearts and through them GAC, her life touched so many lives. She will be remembered. I am so sorry
November 17th, 2006 at 7:24 pm
Your writing is honouring her. I am so sorry.
November 17th, 2006 at 8:35 pm
Thank you all for your many beautiful words. They’re like autumn leaves, so many different colors.
November 17th, 2006 at 8:54 pm
Indeed. Thank you so much.
November 17th, 2006 at 9:17 pm
Dear AT,
I’ve been following your sweet, tragic romance since I learned ofm your blog (from your mom; I work with, and love, her). I feel like I’ve known you and BJ forever, from all that you’ve shared with all of us.
You are a remarkable man, blessed to have spent the past 10+ years with the love of your life, and have 2 wonderful boys to share and raise. I’ve fallen in love with all of you.
My heart is breaking for all of you. I haven’t stopped crying since early this morning when I read the message about BJ’s stroke. Somehow, I knew that was probably close to the end of the story. You were ready to let her go; I wasn’t. But, I had to do so, and took my strength from you.
I have a daughter not much older than you and BJ, and maybe that, and the fact that your mom is a friend, is why this has hit me so hard. I haven’t replied before now because I just didn’t know what to say. But I’ve ridden this roller coaster with you for 2+ weeks, and now feel compelled to let you know how I feel. I’m grieving with you, my friend, and will for a long while.
Please accept my love and prayers for all of you. Hug the boys for me, and BJ’s parents too. I understand she was an only child. So is my Allison, and I just can’t imagine the pain they’re
going through. Tell your mom hello, and hug her for me too.
With love and prayers to you all.
November 17th, 2006 at 9:41 pm
I am so sorry. Thank you so much for sharing BJ with us - we’re strangers, but you have taught me about love.
November 17th, 2006 at 10:19 pm
May you find peace someday amid your grief.
So so so very sorry.
November 18th, 2006 at 6:08 am
Although I have never posted here before, like so many others, I’ve been following your story and I am heartbroken for you and the kids.
Memories and souls don’t die, so she’ll live on in your thoughts and in spirit.
I am so sorry for your pain.
November 18th, 2006 at 6:48 am
I’m so sorry.
November 18th, 2006 at 12:26 pm
I want you to know that we are praying for you and your family.
November 18th, 2006 at 5:10 pm
I’m so sorry to hear that :( I know you know this, but a few years without her, and then you’ll be rewarded with the time you’ll get to spend with her after you pass on :) I’m praying for you and your families.
November 19th, 2006 at 8:38 am
Here via Busy Mom - my condolences to you and your family.
November 19th, 2006 at 10:06 am
My prayers go out to you and your family. I am so saddened by the loss of your wife and wish you much comfort from the people who love you. This is so very tragic, but I know that memories of BJ will comfort you and her love will always surround you.
November 19th, 2006 at 10:17 pm
Courage, AT.
“Life is mostly froth and bubble,
Two things stand like stone,
Kindness in another’s trouble,
Courage in your own.”
From “Ye Weary Wayfarer”
by Adam Lindsay Gordon
November 20th, 2006 at 10:51 pm
The world is a small place.
BJ’s life and your love for her has touched people here on the plains.
Your tribute to Her continues everyday.
I would be honored knowing my husband loved me as much as you love her.
November 21st, 2006 at 4:57 pm
I came across your blog from another blog, and I’ve been reading your past few entries. I am so incredibly sorry for all you and your children been through. I just don’t know if those words are enough. It just tears me up to read what you’ve wrote - I can tell how much you love her. My condolences.