OK people, this is what we’re going to do
November 17th, 2006 by Atomictumor
In 5 minutes I’m going to walk into the kids bedrooms, wake them up cheerfully, get them excited that its Friday (G gets excited, at least), and send them to school.
They’re not going to catch any wind of that. Pigpen’s teachers I’ve talked to, G’s, I figure you’d agree also. Lets just keep this between us, right?
I’m going to try to postpone BJ’s death until after G’s birthday (unless she recovers, which would be damn miraculous, but not the strangest thing that ever happened, and not being ruled out by me). I regret that losing their mother during the holiday season will forever be part of the kids, but I think that G needs to have his birthday without the shadow of this. Its about life, not death, and G needs to understand that.
Otherwise, he’ll grow up to be a Goth, and nobody wants that.
OK?
Cool.
(Love you angel)
November 17th, 2006 at 7:59 am
I’m keeping you in my prayers today. I don’t know what else to say. But I will have you with me in my heart all day. Checking in later.
November 17th, 2006 at 8:01 am
I”m so sorry. If tears can get a woman into heaven, then BJ is just inches from the door. Dear God, this stinks.
November 17th, 2006 at 8:02 am
My heart is breaking for you AT. You and your family will be in my thoughts all day. I’m so so sorry!
November 17th, 2006 at 8:05 am
I’m so very sorry. Words fail at the moment.
You and your family have all our prayers.
November 17th, 2006 at 8:16 am
I can’t think of anything worthwhile.
You’re all in my thoughts. I’m glad you have the strength to let her be at peace, even though it tears up your own. We send love and hugs to you all.
November 17th, 2006 at 8:17 am
Words aren’t coming for me either.
Do the best you can AT. I know you will.
November 17th, 2006 at 8:24 am
We’re sending you love from Ottawa–I know BJ is feeling all the love that’s been coming her way. You have strength and whatever decisions you make are the right decisions. Love is your guide.
November 17th, 2006 at 8:57 am
I’m so sorry AT. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I’m at a lost for words.
November 17th, 2006 at 9:20 am
AT, I am so unspeakably sorry for you. I have been following your story since I heard about you, and I was so hopeful in recent days. Now my heart is breaking for you and your boys. I will continue to pray for you all - especially for you and the fledgling faith you have found. Don’t let go of that - for all of your sakes.
John
November 17th, 2006 at 9:44 am
“Otherwise he’ll grow up to be a goth” - heh.
Your sense of humor remaining obviously intact during this whole thing has been so inspiring to someone like me (who cracks jokes about anything that ever happens to her). Bless you for this one AT. I get a strong sense that BJ also has a superb sense of humor…
November 17th, 2006 at 10:38 am
I am so sorry. I can barely type because my eyes are so filled with tears. I will continue to pray for a miracle.
My beloved grandmother suffered a massive stroke just before Easter. We buried her on Easter Sunday. Although that memory always lingers now every Easter, I think of the story of the resurrection, and somehow it seem more appropriate and meaningful than it ever did before.
Nothing can be said that will comfort you for your loss. There are no words that can take away the hole in your heart. Cling only to the fact that you had the once in a lifetime, once in several lifetimes, opportunity to share true love, to be with your soulmate. Few people really ever have that opportunity.
Through this whole thing, you have done the right thing. You have been there for your sons. You are a remarkably strong person, and the love of your family has made you that way. I wish you love and peace.