November 17th, 2006 by Atomictumor
Two weeks ago right now, I was awake because it was the first night in years I’ve slept alone, and because my BJ was in the step down room at the hospital, in pain, thirsty, wearing an oxygen mask (because the tubes were too uncomfortable).
One week ago, I was awake because I was pondering the damage inflicted to her brain, and because she had been asleep for nearly a week. I wondered if she will ever wake up.
Tonight, I’m awake because I k…
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The hospital just called, Dr. Ali talked to me.
BJ suffered a stroke in the middle part of her brain.
“She put up a good fight, but…”
It has placed pressure, and damage, on the brain stem.
Her vitals are good.
The worst has come.
I’m going to tell her parents now. And then I’ll lie awake, and wonder what I’ll do next.
Keep praying. There isn’t room for a miracle, but…
November 17th, 2006 at 4:13 am
I’m a night owl, so I’m usually around this late. I am so sorry, AT. And prayers and thoughts for her, but also you and especially the boys. And all of your loved ones.
Whatever happens next, my wish for you is strength & peace. It’s hard to find at times like this, I’ve been there. But when you don’t think you have any left, the thoughts and wishes and prayers of others will be there still. Especially all those folks right up there with you around you that I can tell how much they care for you and her and the boys, you are blessed. Don’t be afraid to lean on all those up there who care about you all. Goodnight and godspeed, I hope things turn around…
November 17th, 2006 at 4:41 am
Praying for BJ.
Praying for you, and your boys, and your families.
Always praying for that miracle.
Always…
November 17th, 2006 at 6:35 am
AT…I found your site thru another site. How eery I felt yesterday reading all of this….as three years ago I was in your shoes. I have two daughters who were 5 and 18 months when their dad suffered a hemorrhage on the brainstem. As hard as it sounds to say, thankfully our process and tragedy was a much faster process for us all and four days later we were at our end.
I will tell you there is life and life will go on IF for nothing but those two children that were a manifestation of the love between you and GAC. IT HAS TO FOR THEM….I know you have wrestled with your faith in God…but I can tell you my faith is the only thing that got me and his family thru so much of it. So, keep FAITH and don’t close people out…it sounds like you have a lot of support with family and friends and you will NEED it even though you may not think so.
In my prayers!
November 17th, 2006 at 7:57 am
We send you love and hugs.
November 17th, 2006 at 11:29 am
It might not be easy to believe right now AT, but there is always room for a miracle. And we are praying for one BIG TIME! Trust and hope.
and those Nothing to Fear T-shirts rock! How cool is that?