November 19th, 2006 by Atomictumor
The boys went down to the Blueberry Farm, and, as I said, Pigpen got to pet a cow. They also got to do other cool stuff, like ride a horse. Check it out:
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They’re doing fine. I talked to G a little while ago, and they’re doing well. He sounded tired, and Pigpen was asleep at Jenwrights house down the yard.
He said that Pigpen had been a little fussy, but I couldn’t get much elaboration from him. I asked him to make sure that he’s OK, as much as he can, and to let me know if Pigpen needs to come home. Or he he did, for that matter.
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Can’t really talk about my day, because I’m mentally exhausted. I can’t put it together in any kind of interesting way, so I’ll just do some facts. Here comes, watch out.
- Left hospital roof
- (realized I forgot to mention that I stopped by Cemestos Gardens to give Eaves some stuff)
- Decided to swing by BJ’s folks house, after talking with them. Stayed there, talked for a while.
- Headed over to Mojo’s and superT’s place, and drank some beer. She told me a story about BJ that I didn’t know, that was really cool, but that I’m not really here enough to relate. Remind me, and I’ll tell it later. It was really cool.
- Came home, read an old journal of BJ’s, talked to her a little bit more, went numb.
- Kinda sick of the numbness.
So, I’m installing software on the laptop. Got the work stuff working here, so I’m officially mobile. Woot.
I really miss her, but its so distant. Its like turning on a flashlight in the daytime. I’m not hurting, so to speak (except for my damn throat, this cold is pissing me off), but just blah.
Kinda sick of people worrying about me too. Understand it, tho.
Anyway, I’ll talk to you folks later.
Night.
November 19th, 2006 at 10:19 pm
MastaG looks like BJ. They’re beautiful boys.
November 19th, 2006 at 10:29 pm
::refuses to worry about you:: Heh. The kids looked like they were having a blast on the horses. The ONLY time I’ve ever ridden one it was pregnant and I was TERRIFIED for that single fact. I just KNEW it was gonna give birth while I was riding. lol
November 19th, 2006 at 10:41 pm
Just stopped by to say that your family is in my prayers.
(Judy’s blog tipped me off)
November 19th, 2006 at 10:42 pm
Hey AT, next time you see Evan, tease him. Horses freak him out. It has something to do with their teeth. Weird huh?
November 19th, 2006 at 10:53 pm
Im glad the boys are having a good time down on the farm.
November 19th, 2006 at 10:58 pm
I’m glad she journaled. Hope you have some video too.
November 19th, 2006 at 11:00 pm
Hey guys, any chance of getting images turned back on? I really want to see BJ’s gingerbread house from the September archive…
November 19th, 2006 at 11:03 pm
Yeah, that was a casualty of the server move when we started getting a lot of traffic. Frankly, I haven’t asked about it, but I will. Thanks for reminding me!
November 19th, 2006 at 11:08 pm
Just to easy your mind…I’m not worried about you. You have got to be one of the strongest people that I have ever met. (For what it it worth. Sherry has been more worried about me than I am about you.)
AT, I have gained such respect for your strength… and your sensitivity, that we will have to discuss it some day. You really have attained a spot in my personal hall of fame. Not because you can play the “I lost my wife” card, but because I (and my wife) have grown to love you.
Yeah….we’ll talk about it.
November 19th, 2006 at 11:11 pm
P.S.
What is with the freakin helmets. Why aren’t these men wearing cowboy hats?
November 20th, 2006 at 12:37 am
the boys are adorable. Glad that they have things to keep them busy and their minds moving so they won’t have time to sit and think and worry. You take care while they are gone. Praying for all of you. flameslgs
November 20th, 2006 at 1:27 am
awe, from the pictures you posted I can tell that your boys are a beautiful mix of both you and BJ. You must be SO proud. I showed the pics to my daughter and she go SO EXCITED, begging me to take her on a horse ride again (it’s been two years, and the child still remembers it!!)
Good memories. GREAT memories.
November 20th, 2006 at 4:20 am
Hi,
I read all of your posts from Novemeber last night with a huge pain. You described the fight my mother went through with her disease, it started off like flu, and over the space of 24 hours her Kidneys had failed. My Mother was 78, but fought like a tiger like Bj did, and went through so much of the same stuff. The blood pressure was the big thing, the constant battle to get it stable so they could hook her up to the dialysis machines, eventually it was all to much for her and a series of strokes claimed her.
Why am I telling you this? its because 2 years later, I realise that I can remember her without crying more often than not, I can say”remember how Mom used to…” without breaking down, I can look at photos of her without feeling huge pain and I remember her with great love. Hopefully you will reach the point where you want to be, when you can see your wifes face in your children, and it doesnt cause you sadness only joy.
My thoughts are with you.
November 20th, 2006 at 6:27 am
Oh man. I just re-read a few more from the archive…This Just Ain’t Right. Sigh.
AT, you still taking that philosophy class? Mayhap we could use a good round of Hobbes v. Locke hereabouts…
November 20th, 2006 at 7:38 am
Just letting you know how much i love your new header…that is perfect.
The boys look like they are having a fabulous time.
November 20th, 2006 at 8:57 am
I will third the sentiment that they are beautiful, beautiful boys.
November 20th, 2006 at 10:04 am
AT, I’m so very sorry for your loss. So very sorry. I’ve been praying for you and for BJ since I read at the beginning of November what happened. Now, I pray for strength for you, and for healing for your whole family, no matter the length of time it takes for that healing to happen. I hope you can be at peace, too.
November 20th, 2006 at 10:11 am
What precious boys you have. Pigpen reminds me a little of my five-year-old. It’s good to see them; now I have mental images to go along with my prayers.
November 20th, 2006 at 11:28 am
how sweet are the faces on your boys.