December 13th, 2006 by Atomictumor
Today is the first day this week I’ve gotten up when I’m supposed to and logged into work. I couldn’t sleep too well last night, I kept waking up wondering about things. I actually had dreams that I was checking the comments on this little website (with its new skin).
I’m a dork.
Today will be a good day. Really, lots of these days are good days, if I have the patience and eyes to see it.
Patience has been a real issue for me. I get very irritated at the smallest things, driving, for example. The kids, for another example. I try not to let it show, but it gets on my nerves. The ol’ “deep breath” trick seems to be helping a little bit, but still, that anger thing is full on.
December 13th, 2006 at 8:30 am
I ask myself, “What would Alan Shore do?” and it helps frequently. I was going through a brief time of intense stress and I tried WWASD for a few weeks and it worked well. I revealed to Cathy my technique and periodically she will declare, “You’re Alan Shoreing me!” (which is funny unto itself).
My recent meeting at the elementary school made me so angry that if it wasn’t for WWASD I may have ended up on the six o’clock news. I literally had to take pause, ask the question in my head, snear at the b*&^h, and response calmly with multisyllabic words. A mantra helps.
December 13th, 2006 at 8:36 am
I have no patience either. I know where you are coming from.
December 13th, 2006 at 8:57 am
“I feel pretty,
Oh, so pretty,
I feel pretty and witty and bright!
And I pity
Any girl who isn’t me tonight”
Hehe
December 13th, 2006 at 9:11 am
So glad you’re back. Hope you have a good one. I’m thinking of you and your family.
December 13th, 2006 at 9:36 am
Odd. Today’s the day I decided to cash it in for the day and stay home. Because of my job, I am never really “not working”. But today I am putting myself on call and spending the day with the kid.
December 14th, 2006 at 12:20 am
I’m so glad to see the comments back on! I still cannot imagine what you’re going through.
The tree looks great!!
December 14th, 2006 at 12:32 pm
Who doesn’t have road rage at Christmas? I gotta think people who don’t have at least some amount of outrage at this time of year are deranged.
I was serious about the throwing bottles in the last post, by the way. I think I’d go get all the empties and pile ‘em out in the back and get the BB gun. Works for me when my boss is being a shithead, anyway.
December 14th, 2006 at 12:32 pm
Who doesn’t have road rage at Christmas? I gotta think people who don’t have at least some amount of outrage at this time of year are deranged.
I was serious about the throwing bottles in the last post, by the way. Very satisfying, as long as you wear safety glasses.
December 14th, 2006 at 12:47 pm
Heh. Guess that’ll teach me for trying to reread what I wrote…my lame-assed edits make it into the final product.
Just thought the better of bringing the shithead boss into it, but who hasn’t ever had one of those? I ask you.
December 14th, 2006 at 1:29 pm
Yeah, there is no reediting here… it’d be too, uhh… professional.
I’ve always been fairly lucky with my bosses, which is good, because I’ve always had issues with ‘authorities’ and telling them things like ‘bite me’.
December 15th, 2006 at 12:12 pm
Rage and impatience are manifestations of grief, too. Your family is in my prayers.