Movies, good times, impatience
December 14th, 2006 by Atomictumor
Picked up the kids and decided to go see Happy Feet. Pigpen wasn’t really into it, although he was completely into the idea of it of going before the movie started. He got fidgety about halfway through, and sat on my lap after his second trip the bathroom (when I very lightly swatted the back of his head for taking me to the bathroom just to get out of the chair, instead of to actually USE the bathroom, and he looked at me and said “You don’t do that, Daddy!” with a Clint Eastwood glint in his eye).
We were watching the movie, and not paying attention to it together for a few minutes. I patted his leg, and enjoyed the closeness of a 4 year old son. I’d reach over, and put my arm around MastaG in the next chair, and enjoy the closeness of a 10 year old son.
When Pigpen and I were sitting, he quietly said “I miss Mommy.”
I told him I did too.
We watched the movie, came home, ate, and went to bed.
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As I wrote this, I was listening to the music that Bos linked to in an earlier comment, and I listened to the lyrics for a bit (which I tend to ignore in my impatience with things in general, and I saw The Beauty. Its been about a month, and it took me away for a minute.
I have tears in my eyes.
I miss you, and love you, BJ.
I’m crying for you, and me, and life, and The Beauty, and the pain, and everything, harder than I’ve cried in a long, long time…
i love you.
i’ll love you forever.
December 14th, 2006 at 9:32 pm
Im glad you all had a good time at the movie. Sorry for the pain. If you need anything let me know. I enjoyed meeting your Mom and Dad at the school. Talk to you soon.
December 14th, 2006 at 9:40 pm
She loves you too.
December 14th, 2006 at 9:43 pm
I got the Sufjan CD from the library the week after BJ died. We’ve talked about how we both tend to ignore the lyrics. I got caught in traffic at the Solway bridge and all I had was time to listen to the lyrics. They amaze me.
The Beauty comes all of a sudden.
December 14th, 2006 at 9:47 pm
Holding you in prayer…
Peace and Beauty to you and your boys.
December 14th, 2006 at 9:48 pm
We’re going to see happy feet this weekend. I know there will be plenty of bathroom trips involved seeing as I’m taking a 5 yr old, and 3 yr old.
Even though I don’t know ya, I can picture the 3 of you at the theater, being your family of 3.
It does come all of the sudden, doesn’t it?
December 14th, 2006 at 10:20 pm
I just keep telling myself that tears are good for the complexion and so I thank you for my lovely skin. I heard the song twice at work today, but didn’t “hear” the lyrics until this post. I think I see “The Beauty” too and sometimes things are so beautiful it hurts to look at them.
Vickie
December 14th, 2006 at 10:35 pm
Dude, I care.
December 14th, 2006 at 10:41 pm
AT — BJ loves you and she has not forgotten the ones she left behind. Sometimes, there are no good reasons — only Beauty. It gives no reasons and sometimes it gives no comfort. It runs against the grain of all we hold true and sometimes it is the very meaning of out existance. It sometimes make people run into burning houses to save another or pull a wreched car door open with their bare hands. Peace and comfort to you and your boys AT.
December 14th, 2006 at 10:56 pm
“Idgie Says:
December 14th, 2006 at 10:35 pm e
Dude, I care. “
:)
December 14th, 2006 at 11:45 pm
Oh man. I have not words for how frickin’ sad I am for that kid right now. Guess I’ll have a good complexion soon too.
December 15th, 2006 at 12:25 am
Sweet Pigpen. When I read what he said at the movies I thought, I miss my mommy, too.
December 15th, 2006 at 7:50 am
Awwww. I’m sorry. You guys are in my thoughts.
December 15th, 2006 at 1:57 pm
I hadn’t listened to the lyrics of that song, which is odd for me, ’cause I’m the lyric-y type.
So I just did, and that song is a gift. That’s the only way I can think of to describe it.